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08 Apr 02

my day was turned inside out

today might as well never have happened. it was a complete waste of a day, and all that i got out of it is that i’m a day older. i dont know what’s been wrong with me all day (i could blame the time change but it’s more than that) but i’ve just wanted to sleep all day. i woke up at 12:30 only because my mom called to see if i’d changed my clock, and i ended up having a nap again from 4:30-6:30 or something crazy. lunch at 3:30, dinner at 9:30…how natural.

i wanted to go to bed earlier than this tonight but i havent quite been able to yet. i talked to a couple people tonight who ended up just making me feel down (and i know that they shouldnt have but they really did), so i’m just sorta sitting here feeling blah. of course, sitting in the dark listening to music doesnt really tend to make me feel any better, but i’m avoiding sleep because it just feels like one of those nights that’ll lead to bad dreams or tossing and turning.

i was just looking at my schedule for tomorrow and i’m dreading it already…i’m in interviews from 9:30-4:30 and i know i’m going to be braindead by the end of the day. i have a bunch of ongoing stuff that i know i have to do this week, and it’s just a matter of squeezing it into the gaps between interviews…not a good thing. and the big move is coming up on thursday…i think i’m gonna begin packing tomorrow.

i made this cd i really like for a friend of mine last night and i hope she likes it…i listened to it 2 or 3 times today and i’m happy with it. i love spreading the canrock wealth.

anyway, one last ponderance before i put my laptop away: it’s now already april 8th. that means i have 3 more weeks or so until the next phase of my life begins. i’m not sure how i’m feeling about that anymore…some days i’m definitely doing better than others, and after tonight i’m sorta having one of the less good days i think. anyway, i dont know how my life jumped from last summer to this april in the blink of an eye, but apparently it has, and here i am once again unsure where to go from here. the point of all this is that you should unfortunately expect me to be whiny for the next little while (more so than normal even) and i apologize for that in advance.

i could probably write all night in an attempt to escape and avoid, but i shan’t and i’ll say good night now.

currently spinning: beulah – night is the day turned inside out

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Pronunciation: 'ch&mp
Function: noun
Etymology: perhaps blend of chunk and lump
Date: 1883

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